Losing Hope. Finding Purpose

I am so fired up for this post.  I've been shaken and awakened.  spending days in prayer and writing and praising. Radical changes are taking place, not only in my life. In every life.
 The convictions in my heart are ringing loud.
I cannot keep quiet. I have to share this joy, this real tangible joy with anyone and everyone who will listen, because its as real as the air I breath. It's time now to give the Lord -my provider- the time, the glory, the respect He deserves.

Last Sunday night, day light savings.  I was reconnected with myself , with the All Mighty- through Him I was made new. A new I had never felt before yet... a feeling that had always been there, inside of myself. a truth I had yet to really listen too. You are enough  It amplified though my thoughts.. through my entire being. spiritual met physical.  Every single choice I had ever made led me that exact moment in time... that exact moment when God grabbed hold of my life and said " i need you. "

Being raised in the faith my whole life,  it seemed almost easier to stray away.  It becomes all too easy as you grow up to feel the pressures of this world to conform to its ways- to "fit in". Without a firm foundation of self worth we tend to question ourselves & what we know to be true, we can stray away from what we believe.  So many times, this world presents its false fun that linger for mere moments. On to the next trend the next distraction. everyday we're being lied to our faces and worse, we believe! The lies consume us and become stronger than us... we give them power by believing. The devil is working harder than ever to win us over. Alone we have fallen short. only in the Father, the son, the source of life can we overcome the dark!  If we believe, thats all  He asks of us. BELIEVE in ME and you will be made new. He shouts it!  A new that you cannot even fathom. A new that I promise you will see.

I have struggled with this very issue my entire adult life. Never feeling like I actually belonged anywhere.. Once the world taints your childlike vision of its magic and wonder its easy to crash and fall. I fell victim to an extremely cynical way of thinking; anger and anxiety clouded my daily thoughts and actions. I started each day (if  a good one) with good intentions but within  hours of waking I could feel the hate for this world festering. angry that I had to raise my child in this corruption. feeling helpless and alone in the battle. Switching back and forth between faith or friends. that was the lie I had let take over my mind. It had become my reality.  Somehow along my journey in life I let my love and passion for living turn to a hostile hate. I hated the world for everything it had become and for the direction I could see it so quickly  plummeting.. I lost my hope. I couldn't take one more miserable day of it. So I let it go. I asked, I begged for help.

ASK AND BELIEVE AND  YOU SHALL RECEIVE.

That sunday night, that spring forward. In my anger, in my helplessness, my hopelessness. I called out for answers.
God showed up. clear as day He spoke into the night.
He reached into my life and lifted the hate, the doubt the anger and anxiety from my bones. He replaced it with joy. pure joy and a confidence i had never experienced before. For the first time since I was a little girl I felt purpose.  All along, it was in me . i am legend. 

God is coming back, sooner than later. the time to act is now and it is our duty as His creations on earth to build up and army. to shine in his behalf and spread the good news to each and every soul. not to shove religion and judgment on the world, but to show up with love and compassion. to clothe the naked and feed the hungry and house the homeless. breath life into the dying and ignite fires in cold hearts, so that they can once again feeel life and purpose surging through their veins. we are here for such a short time.. time that only counts down. precious time. its not meant to be spent filling it up with things and stuff and more things and money more money...

All things are possible with the hand of God. I have never ever been more sure of anything than I am of this now. I have always thought it, but now, to feeeel it to truly believe it and know I will not be shaken. I will awaken each day with purpose. I will pray. I'll live my life fearlessly for a cause.
Glory to God for all He has done, all He is doing and all He has yet to do.
things are happening. choose to fight for the good team. choose joy. choose to live. really live.

Its funny how many times God can rock your life, shake you to the core, bring you to your knees... He will do it over and over and over until we answer the call.  He will never do it out of anger or bitterness. He does it out of love because He is love . He is always patient . He longs to be reconnected with us, with His precious creation. He loves each and everyone of us individually, as a parent loves a child. Deeply and without end. All He wishes for is a personal relationship! Is that so far out of his right as Creator? I believe not.
The battle for souls is in full swing. wont you help save them!?
We live by the sun and we feel by the moon. We are made of star stuff people. Magic. We were made to SHINE . cant you feel it ?! Its in me and you, and inside ever person who passes you on the street... we are all made in the image of God. Just cells clinging together, bound by a soul, longing for a purpose. Answer the call and find your purpose.  To simply live for him, and let live. Just as the moon reflects with sun we were meant to BE - a reflection of the son.

do with me your will oh Lord. Make the path I should walk as bright as the sun and your voice in my life as loud as thunder so I never ever again stray from purpose. Give me the wisdom to recognize the schemes and lies of my enemy so I may rebuke them in your name.  I will be the change, my children will save the world, through you, one action at a time. I will shine.