Hello October

ahh, i love the beginning of a new month, especially a fall month. October is so refreshing.

as i've mentioned before, i've been struggling with living in the here and now. i'm so caught up with thoughts of the future. the mister coming home, moving again and again, all the planning that goes along with it.. my mind races with questions like "should we stay in the army? where will we live?" where do we want to live? what do we want out of life....?!?!" i think about having a home, where that home will be, do we want another baby? when?.. Liberty's first birthday and homeschooling, the holidays.. I make list after list.. I get stuck scrolling on one social network or another.. pinning this, pinning that, sinking further into my restlessness and discontent ... its all too easy. insanity is the definition of doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result.. im tired of this madness.  im tired of trying to figure it on my own. I choose God and I choose happy! I prayed and went to Target ( they sell happy at Target) 

"someday is no way to live your life." 

highly recommend the book, not just to mamas but to anyone who shares the struggle. it's designed to be a year long journey to a "hands free" way of life. sounds intriguing right?  take the trip with me!

so hello to october and hello to now. I don't want to miss the moments of today because i was too busy trying to prepare for tomorrow. 

LET GO and LET GOD.  He alone is my Jehovah Jireh. My provider and He's never let me down. So in the words of Carrie Underwood "Jesus take the wheel" cause i'm going to sit back and enjoy the ride from here on out.   

we are just vapors in the wind.