The Power of a Praying Wife

One of the most important things I've learned during these past 6 months of deployment is that you have to consciously remain positive. It is so much more a choice than you would think! I've learned that in order to accomplish this I had to turn my worries into prayers. - If not I would worry myself into a deep dark place Im sure of it- my mom has this book called the Power of a Praying Wife, its part of a whole series I'm pretty sure. I have yet to read the whole thing but a few stand out to me. this one in particular is for the husband away from home:

i've changed a few of the words and placed Codys name in it to make it more personal.

Lord i pray that you will protect Cody while he is away. Keep him safe in cars & planes and every other mode of transportation. Bring him back to me safely. Bless all that he does- whether it be for business or fun. I pray in the time away he will draw closer to you. Help him to hear your voice speaking to his heart. Even though we are apart, I pray you will enable us to grow closer. Help us to let go of any problems or disagreements we have had in the past and to dwell on the good things we have together, now and in the future. 
Enable Cody to be influenced by you and your ways more than any other influence he may come in contact with. Help him to turn to you as his rock, fortress and deliverer. Keep him on the path of obedience to you so that he will be protected from evil. Guard his health and his soul. Preserve his outgoing and his homecoming. I pray when he returns that we find a greater compatibility and communication than we had before. I also pray that the separation will have been a time of rejuvenation for the both of us, and that we will have a fresh perspective and greater insight. Enable us to see each other with new eyes. I release Cody into your hand today for safe keeping.
In the Name of Jesus I pray AMEN

Every time I pray this prayer I feel closer to him. I feel a calm. I know the Lord has plans for me and my family and I will continue to trust him completely , even when it seems most difficult.

Yesterday was one of those most difficult days. I heard "local soldier killed in afghanistan, details at 11" My heart stopped. My stomach flopped. I've never heard those words before.  MY husband is a local soldier in Afghanistan. 
I had not heard from Cody in over 24 hours...I clung to the knowledge that it could in no way be my husband because by law they have to contact me before anything can be released by the media.

11:00 rolled around and they flash a picture of Maj. Michael J. Donahue, the 41 year old husband and father of 3.
what a strange mash up of emotions - the shortest surge of relief followed with deep sadness. I longing to reach out and hug his wife, now a widow, a single mother of three.

that could just as easily be me . I cannot afford to think that way....

I find it so difficult to cope with these things on my own. the only thing that I find comfort in is prayer. Without prayer the sadness would consume me.
I pray for you Mrs. Donahue, I am broken for you. I can't even come up with the words, but God can see my heart. He knows and he cares. I hope you find a rainbow amidst this hurricane.