Not the me I want to be....

Today was hard. 

Not so much difficult, but hard. Hard on my heart.

I broke down.

I think I'm losing my mind a little bit,

I am happy and I am sad. I am content yet restless beyond belief. 

I am not fond of these mixed emotions. 

I want my husband, I need him so badly.. I want a home. - whats a homemaker without a home?

I need to be planted, I need to grow roots. I dont know why I am finding it so difficult to stay positive this past week. I am not thriving here. Something needs to change. I feel lost. I feel alone. 

I am sad because I am sad. 

I have a beautiful daughter, We have our health and all of our day to day needs met. 

Why do I feel this way. Why cant I find my positive...