Let me explain..

There's a lot of activity going on beneath my skin, I can physically feel it, like I'm floating in cold water, or simply riding a breeze... I feel suspended at times. As if time itself stops and the natural order of life as it is becomes so crystal clear... an I see it completely upside down..
what is this nonsense everyone is clinging so tightly to? Each person demanding his or her own pen to jot down their own definitions, calling it "life".
I sit in this limbo state.. waiting for something great. I hear it...lingering like the hum, just waiting to be turned up.
I pray genuinely & daily for the Lord to reveal His heart to me, to let mine beat in rhythm with His. To portray those in my sight with His eyes and not my own. That I may speak only words that need to be heard... and that He speak LOUDLY and c l e a r l y  to my soul, so I can confidently identify him in my storm of self.  I pray for retention of truths so I can proudly re-proclaim them to the hurting hearts, the lost loves, the searching souls.
..and whatdoyaknow, he answers me.. but this only scratches the surface .. because now this is where the battle intensifies. With all this wisdom and clarity pouring through me, so the attacks from my enemy reign down. The further I press on the harder it becomes to travel. Most times I feel like my bad days outnumber my good days.. but then He speaks and I am comforted. I can armor up and resort back to the truths I holdfast - That victory is the Lord's and I AM HIS.
Like a nerve exposed I roam through my days. With the passion of Christ and the chaos of flesh...
...it's a strange thing to feel love & hate all at the same time. Opposing passions surging throughout my mind with every breath I'm given. Thoughts on top of thoughts with no way to sort it.  Deeper still, the supernatural elements.. good vs. evil... the WHY we do this .  I'm constantly coming full circle, in all that I do.. trying to be mindful of responding while  keeping in mind repercussions of reactions. day in and day out, right hand in, right hand out, do the hokey pokey and spin yourself around- that's what it's all about..

I choose the pursuit of glory, with a mindset of all things possible,sponsored by the Creator.  

Until your kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.