Tears, Fears, Sharpened Spears

I used to be the girl who cried about everything all the time. Happy tears and fear tears. Sad ones, mad ones. Tears for others and tears because tears. Marrying a soldier, moving far from home and becoming a mother in such a short period of time changed all that. I had to "grow up" rather quickly. My salted sorrows would leave my husband clueless and my daughter unraveled. Tears became a useless reaction to situations I had no control over.. I unknowingly taught myself how to cope without the waterworks, but life continues to pile on the shit and I'm finding myself closer and closer to tears. Salty drops that would fall endlessly for so many reasons. Realizing that the struggles presented to me are directly linked to a supernatural war keeps me grounded + aware. Each circumstance creates opportunity to grow and learn. How successful would a soldier be with blurred vision due to tears and clouded judgment due to fears? I'm not dooming tears to a life of nonexistence, I just think they should be shed with-in reason, in proper season.
Waking up daily in the word, with my eyes dry and fixed on Him and His perfect plan helps me to stay focused on all things possible. All things good. I find that filling up on truths instead of draining myself physically proves to extremely effective in battle (toddler turmoil, financial struggles, marital combat, physical failures).

Don't find yourself caught up in the natural disturbances of this life on earth. Alone in the struggle we stay distracted and reactive, reaping our inevitable downfall and eternal doom.
Instead, pause  B E  S T I L L . Be confident in who you are through Christ our mighty savior. Learn to respond with confidence rather than exploding into reaction. Enter every day with a feeling of victory and reassurance. Wipe away the tears so to focus on wonder and success of creation.
We were not created to be not dull and burdened down. We are to be sharp + light, Walking examples of the joy + peace that surpasses all understanding.We are to be ready + able. Full of the holy spirit. Sharpened spears in the hands of the almighty who stands upon the enemy and claims victory.