This new year has already presented us with new & mostly frustrating obstacles. I'm having a tough time finding the proper balance through it all... No big surprise. Balance is an element Cody brings to this relationship, to life. He would quickly remind me, that no matter what we've got going on, we're better off than most of the population on the planet. - puts things in perspective right? Such a libra, gosh I miss all of him.
Me on the other hand, a total pisces raising a spot on scorpio...SCARY...it's easy to get caught up in it all.
I've watched my posts slowly take a gloomy plunge ...
Incredible how strong the negative thoughts can come crashing in... relentless, they are endless. And oddly enough the weather always seems to match the mood. January hasn't been very forgiving in the lack of sunshine round these parts. Some days you just gotta make your own..
I'm trying hard to learn the art of responding rather than reacting to the crummy crud life tosses my way. It's a slow, moment to moment process.. Over time I'm learning that its worth it... With that being said, we got through the gloomy, gray days. I had my bad days and my moment of self pity. We got through the bad news and the unfortunate events. And now we take it one day at a time.We learn to just live right here right now, just as we are. because seriously, theres no need to take on more than that. I wont beat myself up when I fail. I will learn from each experience and I will grow as I go. I want to display healthy life patterns for my daughter. Even at the fresh age of one she studies me, all the time. She looks to me for guidance and reassurance. I want to give her a strong foundation on which to stand firm in a crumbling world. I want her to be an unstoppable, positive force amongst the overwhelming negativity swarming around. I want her to know God is everywhere, in everything and that there is still so much beauty and good in life, we just have to be still enough, wise enough to recognize it.
This past week I packed up our necessities, grabbed the cat and just drove and drove.. We made the journey down those clay roads. Far away, out of town. Until I got to my family's little piece of country. Not by choice, but surely for the greater good. And here we will be until the mister scoops us up. Out here, we have just what we need. Out here is kind and forgiving. Out here where the air is fresh. Out here we talk to horses. Here I am reminded to sit, breath and listen. Out here I can breath.
Sometimes it takes something dramatic (or in our case one little drastic event after another) to happen for us to step back and refocus on the things that truly matter to us.
Things are a little unsteady right now and thats okay. (or thats what im trying to convince myself)
God will get your attention one way or another.
you can react quickly or you can stop. take a moment & respond to it.
how you do will make a world of difference in your life.
I'm trying hard to learn the art of responding rather than reacting to the crummy crud life tosses my way. It's a slow, moment to moment process.. Over time I'm learning that its worth it... With that being said, we got through the gloomy, gray days. I had my bad days and my moment of self pity. We got through the bad news and the unfortunate events. And now we take it one day at a time.We learn to just live right here right now, just as we are. because seriously, theres no need to take on more than that. I wont beat myself up when I fail. I will learn from each experience and I will grow as I go. I want to display healthy life patterns for my daughter. Even at the fresh age of one she studies me, all the time. She looks to me for guidance and reassurance. I want to give her a strong foundation on which to stand firm in a crumbling world. I want her to be an unstoppable, positive force amongst the overwhelming negativity swarming around. I want her to know God is everywhere, in everything and that there is still so much beauty and good in life, we just have to be still enough, wise enough to recognize it.
This past week I packed up our necessities, grabbed the cat and just drove and drove.. We made the journey down those clay roads. Far away, out of town. Until I got to my family's little piece of country. Not by choice, but surely for the greater good. And here we will be until the mister scoops us up. Out here, we have just what we need. Out here is kind and forgiving. Out here where the air is fresh. Out here we talk to horses. Here I am reminded to sit, breath and listen. Out here I can breath. |
| shes so happy here. |
Things are a little unsteady right now and thats okay. (or thats what im trying to convince myself)
God will get your attention one way or another.
you can react quickly or you can stop. take a moment & respond to it.
how you do will make a world of difference in your life.
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